There are no more barriers to cross
All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane
The vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused
And my utter indifference toward it
I have now surpassed
My pain is constant and sharp
And I do not hope for a better world for anyone
In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others
I want no one to escape
But even after admitting this
There is no catharsis
My punishment continues to elude me
And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself
No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling
Has meant nothing