Kill Alters - Eyelid Viewing lyrics

I look at all realities crumbling
I seek out any flares, an evolving
To pull me way out in the stratosphere
Where I can meet you when I need air

I cannot let me rot any longer
I'm a swan, got me bummed how I'm caged here
Like a ticking fucking time bomb
I'm just so numb, I'm just so done

Getting off on my thoughts like it don't hurt
Got me really cut off in a slow burn
So misleading, bottom feeding
On what could be never-ending

Too distraught to fend off every drainer
Everyone's got a battle to conquer
But I really won't last
Better get here real fast
I'm just doing my best
Now, do you exist?

Whenever I'm awaking
I never wanna leave
I try to pace my mind, escaping
You make me wanna go back, wanna go back
Inner world of synaps, yeah, I like that
I try to stay, I'll test my fate

Cling to every fantasy
Bring to life what's shadowing
I'm boundless like clouds, like clouds
So relentless, what you do to me

I let my mind get way ahead of me
When my own eyes can't tell me what is real
Like clouds looming over everything I do
It's only you, the drug that gets me through (through [3x])
I follow you, I know you take me there
I follow you into my own despair
It's not hard for me to spiral into fuck knows where
Fuck knows where I'll be unfolding now

Fucked up
When I lay here
I'll whither away then
I just wanna fade then
'Cause I know, when I wake up
I won't, I'll be vacant
I just wanna trade in

I'm caught like a moth
I'm lost and done faking

I don't wanna wake up
I know I'll be vacant
I just wanna trade in