Reclaimer - July lyrics

I don't think I'm ready to let go
And I don't want to be pessimistic
But even if I could fix this
I don't think I could carry on
But I never wanted you to feel like this
And I know it's all my fault
But I'll just have to let you know

When I leave this earth it'll be on my own terms
'Cause I'm sick of being told that fate has a plan for me
I've never felt in control
(I've never felt in control)

And all the nights I've spent scratching at my skin
The anxiety that creeps over me
I'll never get a good night's sleep
(Again [3x])

If you ever knew the weight of this cloud above my head
You'd ask why it never rains
It constantly pours behind the absent look in my eyes
[2x]

(In my eyes)

When I leave this earth it'll be on my own terms
'Cause I'm sick of being told that fate has a plan for me
I've never felt in control [2x]

I've been scratching at my skin [2x]