Beggar's Blues Diary - Reconfessions lyrics

Remembering the time when I made you cry
And you blamed the winter rain.
Remembering the plane that took me once away
When leaving was a sin

Remembering the lie that's burning in my mind
Since the day I was a kid
Remembering the truth that flashed back
My youth about "not give in"

Thought I've lost you once again
I'm still counting on a friend
Thought I've lost you once before
Everytime I wanted more

Feeling like a train on a tricky rail
Unwilling to go back
Fighting my own way every single day
Looking for some luck

Hope that I can stay sober and obey
A warm cleaning bath
Then I'll find the way, I'll wash it all away
Whatever holds me back

Thought I've lost you once again
I'm still counting on a friend
Thought I've lost you once before
Everytime I wanted more